Jusjess Poetry – Growth, Healing, and Discovery

all I heard was “replace what was lost in our teens,”

“we’re grown now,” and in that moment

all I felt was failure and the desire to start anew –

LIFE.

Word salads and explanations of beliefs which didn’t align,

All I thought was, “am I good enough”

“I’ll clean this up”

thoughts and

make-believe fleeting through my mind.

For I was broken.

“that won’t happen to me,”

All I wanted was to run away from my past and place into the hands of him all my woes and sorrows,

“I won’t be treated like that.”

an inkling to trust a man again with the soft side of me

But what it took to see with clarity…

Running back and forth with a pregnant backache driving hours to and from confusion and delusion.

Hormones that crept into the cracks of soul wounds,

just two fools then who never fully addressed their childhood traumas.

But now … I do forgive you.