Tag: trauma

• February 20, 2023

  Spoken word video – “Resiliency”

  I get it .  You want to control  You want to stifle me but see- My resiliency. From the time I was a child you, in various forms, tried to hold me mold me choke me  Silence what’s  inside  But see..  The thing about resiliency.. I may have stumbled I may have fallen  Short of…
• January 26, 2023

  Life ain’t as sweet as this villanelle

  

  *Trigger warning Looking back at the stuff I bought Some things with purpose some things just for fun Life ain’t as sweet as little me thought Silly, sassy, stubborn but I took in school lessons taught  Accomplishments made me feel like someone Notoriety and applause stopped, leaving me distraught I am not the shape shifting…
• January 22, 2023

  Identity

  

  I am always my authentic self in my works, but admittedly if it isn’t well received I find myself doing that dance with self doubt. I love the positive feedback that I receive from the transparency that is displayed along my journey through my writing, but I need not let that be a determining factor…
• January 22, 2023

  Bound

  

  Significant strangers tied together by a tree.  What is the root that connects me to you and you to me? I gotta take what I feel, and put it in writing Because surely those first two lines come off disrespectful, I must hold myself accountable and not be neglectful.  After I talk to God, I…
• January 15, 2023

  Voilà Moment

  

  “Individuals on the journey eventually find themselves experiencing a baptism by fire. It’s that moment when they are just about to lose their lives and they miraculously, courageously find the answer that gives their life meaning. And that meaning, that answer, saves them.” – Viola Davis In chapter one of “Finding Me,” Viola Davis speaks…
• November 17, 2022

  SELF … Love???

  This is the part that no preacher no teacher no therapist no spiritual guide, no career no educational degree can do for me. Self love will reveal that you can love in a healthy manner. Self love will reveal that if it’s not conducive to your growth and well-being, that you don’t have to accept…
• November 15, 2022

  They didn’t say-

  They didn’t say that healing journeys were such a task, That the very things I have always lacked: CONSISTENCY, DISCIPLINE, AWARENESS, and even ACCOUNTABILITY- Are required. They didn’t say That at times I would question why I chose to do the hard work the uncomfortable internal work They didn’t say that tests would keep coming…
• November 8, 2022

  “Replay”

  

  Childlike views of the world Naïve perspectives Inferiority complexes Birthed. Self worth Comparison God complexes Survival mode reflexes Competition Conformity Hope in humanity Strides Neuroticism Insecurity Feed me Feel me Teach me Mold me Fix me Who – Is – Me? Physical release. Bandaid. Sober realities. Leave me Stay with me Pray with me Hurt…
• November 8, 2022

  “Present and Accounted For”

  

  I just want to spend the rest of my life Capturing moments Making memories Nothing forced or fake Just being present And taking in all that I would not be able to Had I Or anything Or anyone Succeeded in ensuring That I would not be able To do just that.
• November 8, 2022

  “Mmm-”

  

  To say to you that I have it all figured out Would be a blatant lie My transparency  Is to prevent you from having to heal from me Shoulda Coulda  Woulda  Don’t quite cut it  17, 22, and 34 I birthed you Still to this day I don’t quite have a clue I cannot go…