Jusjess Poetry

***Trigger warning***

They should have warned me about what would happen

Once that box was opened.

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Once years of suppressed bullshit would

Explode into whatever the fuck that was.

For years.

It took me until the age of 21

When I was stationed in Japan

To eat a tater tot.

Blue lights.

Thumps.

Linville.

Ridge.

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Trust?

Trust who?

Apartment walls aren’t thick enough.

There’s still a pile of dust that we missed, get the broom.

I can still hear crying down the hall.

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Before Autumn

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**Did I already say trigger warning?!!!

I knew I liked the same sex before any grown man took my virginity.

Before that neighbor who is likely deceased hugged my neck.

Before my promiscuity peaked in my teens.

I knew how I felt before any trauma.

I knew I was a fighter before it became a defense mechanism.

I was tough before my ego stepped in.

Some shit you can’t escape.

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Autumn is still my favorite season.

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Forgiveness

There’s a slew of apologies that I owe to past lovers. Many will never get the chance to meet the new me. Many don’t want to. And that’s okay.

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Forgiveness is for self?

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One of my family members told me that my writing made him want to sl*t his wrists. I was in middle school. What a wonder it would have been had he asked me a thing or two instead of choosing those words.

I just knew that I had to get away. I had to be more. Do more. I had to be more than what trauma wanted me to be.

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